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Deepfocus myvisajobs3/16/2023 ![]() ![]() But this is my venting of for whatever day it is. I dunno, my thoughts change daily on this topic. In isolation the amount of energy each thought takes is negligible, but add up each interaction throughout the day, and day after day, it's been incredibly draining. Having work and home contexts now collapsed into single environment has had the surprising effect where each interaction with the family during my work day triggers the subconscious thought of whether I just made a tradeoff between work and home - and if so, was it the right one. They're of course not mutually exclusive, and kids are clear priority if it were. Granted, most days are a little more even, but it's hard to not feel like there's a choice between damaging relationships/reputation at work or damaging relationship with kids. Today I had to cut off my 1st grader, who was in middle of excitedly presenting me a LEGO she completed, because it was :59 after and I needed to get on a call. Yesterday I was inside between meetings for a total of 4 minutes between meetings and had reduced two of them to tears. My work space is a single car unconditioned garage, atop a stack of boxes. Three kids spanning elementary and middle one is neurotypical, other two have different strengths and needs. I guess what I am trying to say is the current situation is not optimal. My kids ask me why I have to work so much all the time, as all they want to do is spend time with me. Its a depressing situation all around but I am very grateful to actually still have a job while so many others have lost theirs. I feel very bad for my kids as all they want is to be able to play with their friends and do all the things they could before so I do my very best to not show them my frustration. ![]() I have been able to get very little deep work done and find myself working until 2 / 3 am to accomplish the same work I used to do in a normal shift. ![]() Almost all income producing departments have to pass through her team and they laid off her support staff) but is still expected to complete real work as well which she cant do now until the calls stop after 5. She is forced to be on conference calls for most of the day (I am actually surprised at how many there are, they are all calls with executive level people so she cant opt out. My wife has had a hard time adjusting and she is equally distracted by the kids and her frustration feeds mine. I find it impossible to focus as every 10 minutes I have a young child running into my office, or have to listen to them yelling at each other (as all kids do). Once my children's school closed and my wife's work switched to work from home, my productivity has plummeted. Prior to the Covid shutdown, I had generally enjoyed it. I have worked from home for the last couple of years. ![]()
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